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147. Welcome to Student Life

Best use of opera music ever.

Of course this is only for the week before the exams. The rest of the year we do fuck all. But still. That week.

Over and Out!

144. Basically the entire student population right now.

*sweeps away books*

*rips up notes*

*runs out into the sun arms outstretched*

120. Can I go back to uni now?

I’m seeing posts and statuses everywhere about how excited people are to be returning to uni and I’m still sitting at home like a bum waiting for term to start. Most unis start in September; mine starts in October and whilst this is great if you’re actually doing something, it can get hella boring if you’re not. There is only so much daytime tv one can watch.

I can’t even work on my fourth year project because my project supervisor appears to be MIA. It doesn’t help that my project isn’t the traditional sort so I have no idea where to begin. Not good.

But it’s not like I haven’t done anything this Summer. I completed my internship. I got a job offer. I did two weeks of jury service. The thing is I’m one of those people who likes to always be working towards something and right now I’m not doing anything useful. If this is what being unemployed feels like, please God let me always have a job.

*sigh*

I’ve caught up on sleep. I’m rested. I am so ready to go back. I’d honestly prefer to be buried under coursework deadlines than be this dissatisfied with how I’m using my time.

Over and Out.

90. The day before the end

It’s the night before my final exam. At this point, I’m not even that fussed how tomorrow goes as long as it’s over quickly. I probably ought to have done more revision considering I need a minor miracle to balance out the mess that were my others exams…instead I decided to make this…an oragami dress. I think it’s pretty cute.

Finally got around to using my oragami paper!

The folds as seen on the back

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[Edit]

A few people wanted to try this for themselves. Here’s the site I used- it’s really good and the instructions are clear. Have fun!

http://www.howcast.com/videos/510914-How-to-Make-a-Dress-Origami

75. #YOLO #SWAG

  1. Using blue pen instead of black
  2. Not removing your USB safely
  3. Putting cucumber in a fruit salad
  4. Eating After 8’s before 8
  5. Doing your maths homework in pen
  6. Talking in the silent section
  7. Not minding the gap before you get off the train
  8. Standing in front of the yellow line on the platform
  9. Eating crunchies in the silent section
  10. Dividing zero by zero
  11. Leaving out the constant of integration when integrating
  12. Ringing the bell for your bus stop and not getting off
  13. Eating only 4 pieces of fruit and veg a day
  14. Singing rolling in the deep in the shallow end
  15. Buying 11 items in the express queue
  16. Using degrees instead of radians
  17. Not using commas in a list
  18. Wearing red on St Patrick’s day
  19. Not smoking in the smoker’s section
  20. Drinking only 1.99 litres of water a day

#SWAG #YOLO #shinebrightlikeadiamond #bestpostevaaa #hatersgonhate #hashtag

(Muchos gracias James, Shakira and Dania for the ideas)

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71. Make it stop.

Every year, I reach a point during revision where I decide I don’t care. Today is that day.

I am so tired of this. I don’t want to revise. I don’t want to do these exams. I’ve been doing everything to avoid it. I’ll eat, catch up on House, decide to start doing sit ups because sure right now is a great time to start an exercise regime, right? But then I suffer this gut wrenching guilt for not spending my time wisely. All this proves is that I do care. But I wish I didn’t.

I could loosen up and settle for a 2:1. That’s good right? I can get a job with that. Can I live with it though? Is it good enough for my parents? As much as I try to convince myself otherwise, I know the answer deep down is ‘no’ but if I don’t sort this out, that is where I’m heading.

Why have I decided to stay on for another year? Surely I don’t love Imperial so much that I’m willing do this all over again. This is sucking my soul. Please let this be over soon. I don’t want to do this anymore.

*gets up*

*heads back to notes*

*sigh*

55. So it begins

It is that horrible time of year again… exam revision. This has got to be the most depressing, frustrating and lonely part of my degree.

Depressing

Revision means the end of my social life (which I was trying to fit in as much as possible beforehand). I have this bad habit of really letting myself go when I don’t have to go out. It’s only been a few days and my hair is already greasy, I smell like curry, my face is pasty and I’m sitting here at my desk in my onesie. Please no-one ring the doorbell.

This is also the time I will do ANYTHING to avoid revision such as:

  • cleaning… everything
  • ironing things I never wear
  • organising my computer files
  • reading old emails because I don’t even know why
  • playing Neopets
  • watching re-runs of House
  • helping OTHER people with their revision
  • and my personal favourite…complaining about revision…which is what I’m doing now.

Every year I tell myself, I will makes good revision notes while I’m studying the module and every year I end up making them in April. Such a horrible horrible cycle of not learning from my mistakes. *shakes fist*

To makes things worse, I feel hungry pretty much all the time (I think this some psychological ploy made by my scumbag brain to further avoid revision) so I eat up eating everything so now not only am I not working, I’m also getting fat. Dammit.

Frustrating

It sucks having to sit in my room trying to convince myself to get work done. It’s not like I don’t have any motivation. I desperately want to get a First in every module this year (with the exception of Managerial Economics) but clearly I want to watch cat videos on Youtube more. I am convinced that it doesn’t matter where you start from on Youtube, you WILL eventually end up on baby or cat videos.

Lonely

Revision is lonely. It’s something you have to do by yourself. To do this, you have to commit to being holed up in your room with only your fan heater and your music for company which is pretty darn sad. The shitty weather here in the UK does nothing to lighten the mood either. My parents, bless them, do so much to make sure I have what I need. They pop in and say hello and bring me tea but they can’t exactly help me when I’m stuck on a proof or if I’ve forgotten how to integrate. Le sigh.

With all this said, so far today I’ve been quite good. I’m on Chapter 5 (of 19) of Credit Scoring and I aim to finish up to Chapter 7. I will let you know how I far I get next time.

Good luck to anyone else who is also revising!

Over and Out!